30.10.06

oNE figure 8.

8teen more days till the real deal.

768 hours till its over.

5 weeks till independence.

21 papers to sit for.

1 chance.



obliterated

27.10.06

Playing this Game.

Everyone has played this game or will soon play the game.
Playing this game needs courage, patience and determination.

Some regard this game as being the best game ever. Some say this game is a waste of time, just a bore. I say. "Que sara, sara. whatever may be, may be".

This game, having seen many either emerging victorios or losing out shamefully, is quite a scare. I myself have played this game before. But each time it confronts me with something so utterly baffling new. Knowing what to do isn't easy anymore. And cheat codes aren't what they seem to be here. Because cheating will either make you forfeited or on some occasions, go scott free with a very rare exception there.

Right now,
im fighting a losing battle. And losing isn't easy to handle. The battle is a long terrifying, deceptive, exhausting one. Having been drained of all life source a few times, this fight is really taxing. Sometimes i guess it's just a battle of wits, courage and timing. Depending on the higher power to guide and help me through now. I find it very relieving to know that He is there at least to lean on, if none on the field.

Right now,
I feel as if I am the game. Having to look at the circumstances i'm in. Not knowing how to overcome the true enemy. This obstacle SO huge, yet so miniscule is leaning itself closer to me. Threatning to crush me to tiny bits, like a tank going over a monkey's brain or something in the likes. And at the same time, I must keep in mind the hidden tropical bushmen, hidden from sight firing their fiery darts in hopes of disabling me. Not withstanding other obstacles like the walls of doom and craters of death combined with the snakey valleys of guilt and the gates of hades. I'm being played around with.

One must really be on the tips of his toes. Always on the look out for signs.

I want to be coming out triumphant, having been able to overcome this. Then saying, "I have fought the good fight, I have kept the faith, I have won!"





running out of life sources now,
last shot,
last try,
one victory.


25.10.06


Don't Look Back In Anger


Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd once never been
All the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who'll throw it all away

So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say

Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
At least not today

21.10.06

Bleergghhh... Feel. So. Tired.

Cheers! XD.

11.10.06

I've been hiT. arrgh..

AWESOME PEOPLE I WANT TO MEET
- mysElF !
- jackie Chan
- tom hanks
- mr. arnold swaz
- Dakota Fanning
- Chris Brown
- Jamie Oliver


THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
- Friends
- Bolster.
- cartoons
- moovies
- music
- Cash


I WISH I COULD
- Be like Jamie Oliver. >)
- Play unlimited paintball
- Have 'her'. ;)
- show my friends how much they mean to me
- Travel
- eat loads of choc!

SONGS THAT I THINK ARE AWESOME
- Oasis - Let there be love
- importance of being idle
- .The strokes - every song!
- Nick Lachey - I Can't Hate You Anymore.
- Gorrilaz - feel good inc.
- weezer
- fort minor
- Hinder - Lips of an Angel.

I WANT
- a lil bit of freedom
- mp4
- laptop
- cash
- New phone.
- a life. >)
- more best friends.

HOW I SEE MYSELF IN TEN YEARS
- Owner of a few restaurants. =)
- RICH!!!
- stronger in the faith.

RANDOM FACTS
- I love her. >)
- I love God
- I love my blanky
- I love photography.
- I love photoshoping
- I love gossip! heex.
- I love my friends. alot.
- I love music.
- I love candy~.
- I hate good for nothings.
- I hate being brought up just to be shot down.
- I hate i hates. =)
- I hate SAM!. joking~

PEOPLE I TAG
- Michelle
- Sean
- Kathy
- Zelda
- Sam sam sam! Hah!


5.10.06


She was the pillar of the family.
She was the one who always stood up for us.
She was the one who looked after many of us when we were young.
She was our most loved relative.
She was my aunt.
She was our kor kor.


Ever since i was born, i knew her, she knew me.
I practically grew up beside her. Most of us did. I remember being in std 1. i used to go over to her house everyday after school.
having my lunch there, spending my whole day either watching tv or sleeping while waiting for my parents to pick me up after work.
Many a times i used to make her upset. Because she was a perfectionist. Always wanting the house to be spotless clean.
Being the young child i was back then, i leave a trail of mess behind me everywhere i go.

Then as i grew older, i started to remember things. Remembering the times spent with my cousins there, on the old old swing. The dogs
she cared for, Roger, Ronnie, Lasie, Jenny. And the many cats and kittens she brought in. Being an animal lover, she would always
see to it that they got wat they needed. Treating them like her own children. Seeing them die was hard for her, she loved them so dearly.

Cleaning the house everyday without fail. Every tile was swept, mopped and cleaned at least twice a day. You used to use a towel and a bucket
to clean the floors. Then i guess time vaught up and u resorted to using mops. Even that, you weren't satisfied after cleaning once.

Life wasn't so easy on you kor. I know. We know. We used to talk everytime i was there. You telling me about how hard life is and how
unfair things can be, and me either agreeing or comforting you. You meant alot to all of us. You meant so much more to Claire, Tina, Mas,
Linda and the rest.

Your love for us never hid itself. Always being the one who cared for us most. When amah passed away, we knew it would be hardest on you
because you were the closest to her. Caring for her every single day she was bed-riden. I tried to play a role. Helping out in ways i could.
But comparing to what you do, i can never accomplish such selflessness.

After years of hardship, you finally got ill. Coming down with stomach ulcer due to lack of food intake. We thought that you would be alright after a few days spent in the hospital.
Not being able to see through that iron mask of yours hiding the pain and suffering you were experiencing.
And you keeping your pain all to yourself, not telling a soul. Having comfort in the assurance that all this will end.

Then Death knocked on the door. God called you home. You were no more.

The news of your death came as a shock to all. Mostly because we visited you just 6 hours before. I promised to go over and keep you company
the following day, making sure you were alright and at ease. But i didn't get the chance to do so. The only time and chance after so long to repay
your kindness was stolen from me.

Now that you are gone, the house will be quiet. Very quiet.

Rest in peace kor. We love you.

As claire had written, "We shall continue you legacy.", So we shall.







Rest in peace kor



Life is like a vapour

2.10.06

If life were so easy, why bother living?

If life were so easy, why ask?

Is your life easy?





*grumble grumble grumble*